Baby Girl

Baby Girl

By: Elaina Grace Morgan

I see the light in your eyes fading away with each and every single passing day.

You look in the mirror.

But you don't like what you see.

You hide away for fear that they might see.

You say, "I don't want them to see the real me."

I see that your breaking at the seams.

You're starving yourself to death.

You're losing your breath.

Who? You.

You're in pursuit.

You're looking for happiness.

So you're dressing for success, but inside you know you're making a mess.

So outside you're looking for what's next.

So you hit the club to see what the hub's about.

Every night is like a roundabout.

But getting slizzered won't make it go away.

You feel that it's your only getaway.
But baby girl, you know there's a battle for your soul and with all that you'll never end up feeling whole.
So give it to the One who already won it all.

He's the only one who can catch you when you fall.

Instead you hide yourself away in your room.

You turn on the dark music and let it consume you.

Out comes the razor and it doesn't even faze you.

Others think you're insane.

But you're cutting with the intent to ease your pain.

They ignore what they saw.

Pretend like they didn't even see it at all.

But baby girl, He'll heal your hurting heart.

He'll make something beautiful from the pieces torn apart.

But you pour out those pills.

You want to forget what you feel.

You just want to escape, make it all go away.

But everything feels the same after you already went that way.

You live to be high, but they're fighting, knowing the ending

of the story you're already in the midst of writing.

The depression is growing darker.

But your past doesn't determine your future because it wasn't written in marker.

So you contemplate your death, every single last breath.

You feel like your life's a living hell.

So you dwell on the darkness.

On all those you found heartless.

You pick up the gun.

But baby girl, the devil's had his fun.

God's not done with you yet.

So give it to the One who will make you alive again,

paid the debt, and gives the ability to survive again.

You've got a plan.

You've got a purpose.

He is the Only one who can make you stronger.

So baby girl hang on just a little bit longer.

Kindle A Kindness Within

    When you think about the people that you come across  throughout your day the ones who you remember are the ones who take the time out of their day to acknowledge you, encourage you, inspire you, and show you that someone cares. Those are the people who make a difference. They are the people who don't show you kindness just to get something back. It's not the salesman that lowers the price of a product just so he can get your business. It's not the person who holds your hand in hopes that they might get something more out of you. It's not the person who gives you something and expects double back. Genuine kindness is the person who expects nothing back in return. It is kindness without selfish intent. In my experience I see several people who call themselves Christians acting in light of that just as much as people who don't believe in God can at times.

    Is this truly the kind of people God intends for us to be? According to God's Word it is far from it. Luke 6:35 says, "But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked." It is definitely something that we should strive towards as Christians AND don't forget this golden rule: "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you." Boy, it sure is hard sometimes! People will treat you with the utmost disrespect at times, but the best solution to that is to treat them back with the utmost kindness. We all have heard the expression, "Kill them with kindness." It happens to be one of my favorite quotes especially because I have a personality where I just want to teach people a lesson, but the Bible mentions something along the lines of this in Proverbs 25:22- "In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head, and the LORD will reward you."

    When someone treats you wrong don't return the "favor" because returning kindness to them stings more than a harsh word. Remember that one day they will stand before the judment seat and will have to give an account to the Most High. It isn't our job to judge those who have evil intent, but to set an example. There are people out there that would love to see you fall including the one who is out to kill, steal, and destroy.  2 Timothy 2:23-25 says, "Have nothing to do with foolish, ignorant controversies; you know that they breed quarrels. And the Lord's servant must not be quarrelsome but kind to everyone, able to teach, patiently enduring evil, correcting his opponents with gentleness. God may perhaps grant them repentance leading to a knowledge of the truth." In some cases it is best to leave the situation be when the one who you have tried talking to about an issue avoids the problem.

    In that case two things will happen. They will either grow maturity and talk about it or they won't. It's that simple. In times where they don't you owe it to yourself to move on, be happy, and ignore their evil intent so that it may not get the best of you. Some don't realize what they do and some do it with the intention to cause spite. Don't give them that satisfaction. If they do come to you and start to confront the issue then give them the benefit of the doubt. Until then pray for them and if they continue in their deceit or whatever it may be that caused an argument or misunderstanding then rest yourself in the fact that you did what you could. Let God deal with their heart. What do you do in that time? Kindle a deeper kindness within, strive to be the best that you can be, and trust in God that things will work out in the way that God has planned for it to.

Tried and True - Happy Valentines Day!!

    As Valentines Day approaches I want to take a minute to say, "Happy Valentines Day to you all," and for those of us who are single men or women I want to wish you a Happy Singles Awareness Day!! I used to approach this day with so much resentment because of a wounded, broken, shattered, hopeless, and annoyed heart. I used to call "V" Day "D" day and have the desire to wear black to mourn this wretched holiday. (Feel free to laugh because I'm cracking up!!) I'd refrain from wearing black simply because I'd worry about blending in with all of the Valentines Day heathens out there and then tragically all of the single men wouldn't be able to find me. Okay, I am definitely over exaggerating that last part :-) But how many of us singles go through Valentines Day without having a single thought about our relationship status?

    Let me answer that one for you: NONE of us. Now don't stop reading if you're in a relationship right now or even happily married to the guy or girl of your dreams. This is as much for you as it is for your single friends out there, but maybe you don't have single friends. Maybe you are one of those couples who don't associate with anyone who has "single" stamped on their forehead or you can't help but cringe everytime  you come across someone who is over the age of thirty and isn't in a relationship yet. In that case you need to be prayed over and prayed over hard. (I'm only messing with you ;-)) Earlier this week I realized all of the reasons WHY to love Valentine's day single or married. It was a great revelation for me especially because I was clenching my fists a month earlier wishing that February could just fall of the face of the calendar.

    I could imagine it: January, March, April, May...but that didn't seem to go over well with the government. Since that didn't work out I found a better idea. Make this day special by remembering your first love. I am not talking about the first boy or girl you fell "in love" with. I am talking about Jesus, the most perfect icon of true love; the one who sacrificed everything so that we could be forgiven. THAT is true love: sacrifice. I'm not saying you are going to find someone who has perfect love because no one does. We're human. I am saying that we should be the ones to strive to have love as close to perfect as we can whether we are married, in a relationship, or single. Here's a reminder for those of you who do have someone in your life to celebrate your love for: remember to put Christ as the center of your relationship. Try to show a Christ-like love above all else. Now I have something to say for my single readers and even for myself as a reminder. Those who know me know the relationships I have been in weren't edifying for me. They were tearing me apart when they should have been building me up.


    I am to blame for some of this and I have no problem in the world admitting that I've made some bad choices....okay, A LOT of bad decisions when it came to this. Sometimes the mistakes I made were unintentional. Sometimes I was unaware and sometimes I was too numb to see the reality of the situation and for those I apologize. Other times I wasn't strong enough which had caused me to lean on security that someone else provided. I should have maintained the identity that I obtained before those relationships while entering into them instead of burdening those closest to me with my pain. So this is for every guy or girl who has settled for less, for those of you who have made mistakes that have caused you to think you deserve less, and for those of you who have had hearts that have been trampled on and torn apart for every time a guy or girl paired the wrong words and promises with his feelings this is for you I encourage you to focus on becoming all that you want to be.


    Make sure you are stable going into a relationship, make sure you are secure in who you are in Christ, and make sure no matter what problem threatens to shake you where you are rely on God to deliver you from it instead of the one you are in a relationship with. Stay true to who you are when you are tried. It's easier said then done of course, but God doesn't ask us to be perfect. He asks us to do our best. Focus on becoming the right person instead of looking for the right person. Focus on becoming a prince or princess instead of expecting one to see a pauper as theirs. That is when you'll be able to love to the best of your ability. Ask God to heal your pain from past relationships and to mold your thoughts into those that are pleasing to Him and if you are just waiting then pray about the kind of treasure you want brought into your life, and as for me I am going to try better this time to hold myself to the standards I had once laid before myself. So remember to keep your focus right and to tell Jesus that you love Him not only this Valentines Day, but every day.<3